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I didnt said it was your fault ♥ I.L.Y; Dumb-ass I only said i was going to blame you for it.
Tuesday, November 29, 2011 / 11:26 AM Upside down. You can take everything i have, you can break everything i am. Everything is messed up. My life is upside down. Nothing seemed to be right, everything is wrong to me. Feeling so useless right now. I just don't know what to do, to make myself feel better. ;'/ Thousands thoughts running through my mind. Parents problems not settled yet, and then comes another problem. Problem after another, what's this supposed to be? I didn't expect this to happen. I thought i wouldn't create trouble after this, especially with boyfriend. I was wrong. And here comes another problem, and its all my fault. Again. ;'/ Why am i hurting him when he did nothing? Why do i have to do this? What's with me? My ego have grown this big. This is bullshit, why am i being like this? This is not me, not its not. Feeling like another girl, in myself. No. I know myself better than anyone else, i know im definitely not being myself these few days. Why is that so? God, it sucks to be a girl. ;'/ I guess this is the worst week for this month. This sucks, i swear. True what Hannah said, i got carried away by my ego. My ego have never been this big, what happened to me? Just because i'm a girl, doesn't mean i can do whatever i like. Doesn't mean i'm on my period, i can vent all my anger to him. I should've controlled my temper. Why Amalina why?! ;'/ I know it hurts him alot. I swear i didn't meant to do that. Those who knows me well, knows if im mad, i don't mean what i said. I didn't know he took those words seriously. Misunderstanding, mistreated, misplaced. Urgh. ;'( No matter what happens, i'm not gonna give up. I ain't gonna leave. Because it's too late, i fell for him.. And i love him.. I don't wanna break my promises. I don't wanna make decisions when i'm mad, and regret later. I don't wanna do anything stupid. I'm sure we can make it through. This is a part and parcel of relationships. Im sure we can do this together. We can go through the ups and downs, through thick and thin. I trust him. I know we can do it. I believe in us. We just have to talk things out together. Thats all. And yes, i love him no matter what happens. No matter how mad am i, i'm not gonna do anything stupid. No regrets, just love. Thats all, off now.	Yours truly, Nur Amalina Bte Abdul Razak♥; Muhd Azli Bin Rahim♥ FourteenTen♥ Turning seventeen♥ You're the one i need, you're the one i want, you're the one i love. You're my only one, love♥ Honeybunch Sugarplum♥ MuhdAzliRahim♥♥♥ NurSabrinaMohd♥♥ FatimahZahra♥ NurSyahirahSamsuddin♥ NurAzilaAzman♥ 1/3'10 & 3/4'12♥ I love them so much!♥ Let the beat drop . Music Playlist at MixPod.com Click for my wishlist!
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