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I didnt said it was your fault ♥ I.L.Y; Dumb-ass I only said i was going to blame you for it.
Sunday, November 27, 2011 / 8:50 PM Go on and try to tear me down, i will be rising from the ground♥ I know you're somewhere out there, somewhere far away. The girl who never fail to put on a smile, is also the girl who cried the most. She may seemed to be smiling all day long, looking all happy and cheerful without people noticing that she's actually hurting and crying on the inside. Keeping all her feelings to herself, holding back her tears. Trying her best not to let people know how she really feels at that moment. Trying to hold back everything. Trying to keep her smile on. Trying to cover up her feelings. But ended up... Bursting into tears. Tears rolling down her cheeks, crying silently without people knowing. Wiping her tears, trying to stay strong and hold back those remaining tears. Trying her best to put up that sweet smile back on her face.. Ended up crying, crying so badly... The girl who makes mistakes, who always feel useless. The girl who is never right, everything she did seemed to be wrong. When things go wrong, it has always been her fault. She is always the cause of everything, and it's all her fault. Whatever she do, have never been satisfying. The girl who fail at making people happy. The girl who is unimportant to everyone. The girl who is invinsible, no one even notice she exist. The girl who is pushed away by everyone. She deserved to be ignored by everyone, deserved to be forgotten. She deserved all this shits, for her shitty attitude. She's the worst anyone can ever have. Its hard to have someone who can love me for who i am, someone who can accept me just the way i am. Its hard to have someone who can handle me at my worst. Those who can't handle me at my worst, doesn't deserve me at my best. Its hard to have someone who can listen to me, and not critisize me or hate me. Its hard to have someone who can just comfort me, make me feel better when i'm down. Its hard to have someone who understands me. Its hard, nobody said its easy. I don't know who i can turn to, who to rely on. Whenever i try to let it all out, people, no matter who they are, they tend to judge me. They stop listening, and start judging. They stop being there for me, stop being my listening ear. And all i have is, myself and the moon. I can only talk to myself, and sing to myself in order to make me feel better. But that doesnt mean, my mood could just boost up after that. Sometimes, the more i sing or talk to myself, the more tears would be wasted. Well, thats me. Whenever i talk to the moon, i never fail to burst out crying. Although the moon have never judge me, or even reply to whatever i said to him.. It is always an emotional moment for me. Well i hope, someone somewhere out there, could here me and just answer me and talk to me too. That would be great. :') Today and yesterday, wasn't a good day for me. I hope tomorrow will be a better day. Storm don't last, so i hope i can get over everything and move on. Starting a new day, with a wide sweet smile. Hoping that, that smile would light up people's day. Please dont crush that hope, please dont disappoint me. :') Goodnight.	Yours truly, Nur Amalina Bte Abdul Razak♥; Muhd Azli Bin Rahim♥ FourteenTen♥ Turning seventeen♥ You're the one i need, you're the one i want, you're the one i love. You're my only one, love♥ Honeybunch Sugarplum♥ MuhdAzliRahim♥♥♥ NurSabrinaMohd♥♥ FatimahZahra♥ NurSyahirahSamsuddin♥ NurAzilaAzman♥ 1/3'10 & 3/4'12♥ I love them so much!♥ Let the beat drop . Music Playlist at MixPod.com Click for my wishlist!
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