I didnt said it was your fault ♥ I.L.Y; Dumb-ass
I only said i was going to blame you for it.
Saturday, December 18, 2010 / 2:48 PM
I'm sick nd tired of everyth . ♥
Hello everyone . (:
Hey people . Its been a long time since i MIA . Hehe , i didn't even tell you guys that i MIA-ed . Haha , crazyshit . Kay shuddup . Let me start my post . (:
So first . Let me tell you guys something about my love . (:
My love . I miss him . I swear i do . I miss how we met , how we got close , how we get together , how we spent our time together , how we miss each other , how we loved each other , nd everything . I miss everything about us . Its been 11 days since we're separated . Nd what more , tomorrow is our 9th Month Anniversary . I'm sad , who wouldn't ? Its like . Someone who you love , veryvery much , let go of you , just a few weeks before your monthsarry ? Haish :( . I know , its just puppylove . I don't understand why is it so hard for me to let go of him , nd i'm still hoping to have him back . I really don't understand why this feeling is so strong . I love him veryvery much , i really do . I just , don't want to lose him . I'm afraid , other girl would take my spot . I'm afraid that he would like other girl , nd forget about me . I'm really afraid that other girl will walk in his life , nd never walk out . I'm afraid that other girl will take his heart , steal his heart from me . I'm just afraid . Now , i'm very insecure . I'm jealous of whoever [ girls ] who talked to him . I just don't know why . I was smiling , but dying in th inside . I can't bare being ignored by him every single day . What more , tomorrow supposed to be our special day . For th second time , we didn't get to be together on our Monthsarry . Saddening much please :'( . Haish :( . I seriously hope we could get back together someday . I just want you back . I don't want others to have you , just me . I really want you back . I need you because i love you . I reallyreally need you . Please come back to me , im lost :'(
Dear Mr. M♥ , I would like to thank you for everything you did for me . Since th day we met , th day we get together , till th day you ended things this way . Thankyou for everything you gave me . Your care , your love , th treats , th stuffs , nd everything . Thanks alot for everything . You've been a great boyf for me . You're th best i ever had . I know , no one out there is like you . Its hard to find someone like you . Someone who could really understand my feelings . Who's always been there for me whenever i needed someone to be by my side . Who's always there to comfort me whenever i'm down . Who's always there to entertain me whenever i'm bored nd lonely . Who's always been loving me more than anyone does . Who's always worried whenever something happened to me . Who cares about me th most . Who always tells me to think positively instead of thinking negative . Who always helped me whenever i needed help . Who doesn't fail to draw a smile on my face . Who doesn't fail to make me laugh . Who always tried his best to meet me , just to see my face . Who gets excited whenever we're meeting up . Who could complete me , my life . Who is my everything . Mr.M♥ , you're my hero , nd I'm your sidekick . No one could ever replace you , my hero . NO ONE . Not even ONE . You're th only one in my heart , i swear . You're th only one i love , th only one i think about everyday . You're th only one in my mind , nd my heart . You are mine , nd I'm yours . I love you no matter what happens . I'll wait for you , i swear . I will , i swear . I'll wait for you to come back to me . Please , Mr . Come back to me . I'm really lost without you . My life is incomplete without you . Because , you're part of my life . Nd i was once part of your life too . Mr , I miss you veryvery much . I need you in my life please . Please Mr , i love you veryvery much . Please come back to me ♥ :'(
Alright , fuck my life please . Tears run down my cheeks when i typed all this . I guess i miss him veryvery much . Haish ! :'( . Alright , next topic .
Okay . Now , about my family nd siblings .
Dear Parents♥ , I'm sorry for being a useless daughter . I'm sorry if i always create th mess at home . I'm sorry for not listening to you guys . I'm sorry for being rude to you guys , most of th time . I'm sorry for spending lots of money . I'm sorry for every mistake i made . I'm reallyreally sorry for not being a good daughter :( . I'm sorry i've never made you guys proud . I'm veryvery sorry :'( . Mummy , daddy . I love you both veryvery much ♥ . I love you guys more than i love anyone else . You guys are th best . I love you mummy nd daddy ♥ :') Dear Mummy♥ , although i'm always lazy to do what you asked me to do .. I feel disappointed , whenever i see you do stuffs on your own . I'm sorry for not helping you whenever you needed help . I'm very sorry , mummy :( . Mummy , although i'm always rude to you . Deep down in my heart , i felt so hurt to see you frown . I know you're hurt when i shouted at you or being rude to you . I'm very sorry for hurting you , mummy :( . I'm sorry for talking back when you're mad at me . I'm sorry for being angry at you . I'm sorry for making you worried . I'm sorry for not talking to you whenever you're lonely . I'm sorry for letting you feel so lonely at home . I'm sorry for always asking you for money nd spending a big amount of it . I'm veryvery sorry for not thinking of your efforts , to get those money . I'm sorry for only thinking about myself nd my wants . I'm veryvery sorry mummy :( . I'm sorry , i'm never a good daughter . I'm not a good daughter for you mummy , i'm sorry :'( . Mummy , i love you veryveryvery much ♥ . You are my life , i love you ♥ Dear Daddy♥ , I'm sorry for hating you at times . You shouted at us , you scolded us for no reasons , you didn't talk to us , nd whatsoever . Those are th times when i hate you th most . But trust me daddy , although i hate you , deep down , i still love you . You're my father , nd i have no reason to hate you . I love you no matter what happens . I love you more than i love anyone else . Daddy , i'm sorry if i always talk back . I'm sorry if i've never made you proud . I'm sorry if i used too much of your money . I'm sorry if i don't listen to you . I'm sorry for being angry at you . I'm sorry for asking you to shuddup , at times . I'm rude , i know . I'm veryvery sorry , daddy ♥ :'( . I'm sorry for not being a good daughter :'( . Daddy , i love you very much ♥
Dear Siblings♥ , I'm sorry if I always blame you guys for some stuffs . I know , at times , i'm always th one who would have to wash th plates , clean th house , buy food , buy snacks nd stuffs . You guys always treat me like that , that's why i always get frustrated with you guys . I know you guys are tired , but you guys have to do some stuffs too uh . Help mum uh . Pity mum , she would have to cook , clean th house , wash th plates , wash th clothes . Please , don't think about yourself . Think about mum too . Haish . I'm sorry if i'm not being a good sister for you guys . I'm sorry if at times i'm rude to you guys . I'm sorry if I treat you guys unfairly . I'm sorry for thinking about myself only . I'm sorry if i don't share my snacks with you guys . I'm veryvery sorry :'( . No matter what , you guys are th best . You guys treated me food , gave me money , gave me stuffs , gave me softtoys nd many more . You guys brought me to places I've never been to . You guys bring me out , nd went to places which i wanted to go . Thanks alot for everything , brother & sister . Thanks alot . Although we fight most of th times , although i hate you guys at times , i know , deep down , i love you guys alot . I can't imagine my life without a sister or a brother . I would be very lonely . Haish , i'm reallyreally sorry , brother&sister . I love you both veryvery much ♥ .
Alright , i'm done with th post . Long post huh ? I cried all th way typing all these . I just , feel so guilty nd bad . I want to be a good girl please . Haish . I've changed , alot :'( . Alright , im done . Byebye people ! ♥
Yours truly,
Nur Amalina Bte Abdul Razak♥;
Muhd Azli Bin Rahim♥
FourteenTen♥
Turning seventeen♥
You're the one i need, you're the one i want, you're the one i love. You're my only one, love♥
