FourteenTen♥

I didnt said it was your fault ♥ I.L.Y; Dumb-ass I only said i was going to blame you for it.
Saturday, November 27, 2010 / 6:40 PM Gonna change for th better (: I'm feeling a little better right now (': Sorry , my previous post was full of nonsense . Im veryvery sorry . I feel so sick , so mood-less , so angry , so sad , so fcuked up . Everything . I just don't know why . Sometimes , I feel like crying out loud , when i'm angry . I feel like letting go of every single feelings of mine . I cannot take it anymore . This is waywayway too much . From boyfriend to family . Haish . I know , everyone has a problem . None of the human being are problem-free . I know that . I sure do . I know , i have to overcome all these obstacles of life . I know , i have to be super strong . I know , i have to be independent sometimes . But that doesn't mean , i don't need any support from anyone at all , right ? Hell yea . Haish :( . I know , i can't escape from my problems . I know , i have to solve them , nd overcome them . Or else , the same problem keep coming to me again nd again . I know that , pretty well . I know , life is simple . But it isn't easy . I know , life is full of obstacles . Nd that , EVERYONE is going through obstacles in life . None of them are obstacle-free . I know that too . Pretty sure . I know , i have to be nice to everyone . I have to respect everyone , no matter how old they are , younger or older than me . I know i have to know my limits nd curfew . I know when to be serious , when to joke around . I know when to have fun , when to study , when to focus on studies , nd when to enjoy life . I know my limits , i sure do . I know i shouldn't have hated myself . God created me . Nd i should be grateful that i'm here on Earth , right now . I shouldn't have prayed to die fast . I shouldn't have hated my friends . Everyone is my friend . None are my enemy . I learn to love , instead of hate . If i hate people , now , what do i get back ? 10 times hatreds . So i guess , i should love instead of hate . I know , i should have been nice to all my friends . Treat them all the same . All equally . Love them equally , nd hate none of them . I shouldn't have talked bad behind their back . I should have talk infront of their faces ! Aingk , fake much . Kay , serious . I should have shut my mouth , nd keep my comments to myself , to prevent from hurting their feelings . I shouldn't have hurt any of their feelings . I know , friends do hurt each other feelings . But we just have to know the limits . I mean like . Don't go beyond the line . Kay , what talking me ? Pfft . Oh , nd , we just have to learn to forgive them . Coz , everyone makes mistakes . Well , everyone hurt others . So , yea . No one is perfect , i know . NONE on Earth is perfect . I know that pretty well . Now , i dont know what i'm feeling . Mixed-feelings , i guess . Haish . In the future . I would like to be a good girl to all . I want to be a good daughter to my parents . A good sister to my siblings . A good cousin / niece / aunty to my relatives . A good friend to ALL my friends . A good bestf to those who are close to me . A good fiancee to Amirah♥ . A good girlf to Hazira&Khairunnisa♥ . Oh nd , to my M♥ . A good wifey to my Azila♥ . A good classmate to my 2/3 '11 . A good schoolmate / junior / senior to all Riversidians♥ . A good student to all teachers . A good stranger to all stranger . [ O.o ? HAHA , BULLSHYT -.- ] . Oh nd last but not least , a good girl to all ♥ (': I will change soon , people . Just observe la okay ? Nd i guess , the ones who will be watching me grow are , NurulAmirahSohaimi♥ , SitiNurhaziraNoorazman♥ , MBO nd NurAzilaAzman♥ . Azila known me for so long already . Nd she's gonna compare the old me to the new me . So , yeah . Amirah , your job is to guide me throughout my life . I'll be guiding you too . Nd your job is to watch me grow . Nd tell me , which you prefer . Teehee . Nd beby♥ . I'll takecare of you , nd you'll take care of me . We'll grow together . We'll change together . We'll go through thick nd thin . We'll go through obstacles together . We'll help each other . We'll be there for each other . We'll support each other . Nd , we'll love each other . Beby , proove to everyone , that you love just the way i am . You love me for who i am , nd accept me for who i am . Nd i'll proove to everyone , the same thing too ! I love you so much , Nurul Amirah Sohaimi ♥ . (': Next year . I'm going to study hard , nd make my parents proud . I'm not sure if it ever gonna happen or not . But , i will try my best to make it happen . I have enough of disappointing my parents nd family . I really want to make them proud , nd happy . I don't want them to be sad , for having a LAZY daughter like me . I just don't want to make them sad . I want them to be happy . Next year . I want to start doing chores . Help mum wash plates&cutleries . Help mum clean the house . Help mum with cooking nd stuffs . I wont be using the computer all the way anymore , like i did this year . Nd i guess , this year is the year when i used the laptop all day long . Whoa , internet addict -.- . Pfft . Yea . So , yeah . I will stop my internet addict next year . I will set my curfew . I will only be using the laptop , once i done my homework nd chores . Next year , once i reach home after school . After i wash up , straight away do homework , if i have . Then , eat . After that , help mum with chores . After that , if got time , then play computer for 2 or 3 hours . Then , sleep at 10pm everyday . Unless , i have projects to be done or whatsoever . Then , wake up at 5.30am every morning . So that i won't be late for school . Prepare my clothes nd books , the night before school . Finish up my homework before school starts . Ask friends for help if i don't understand any questions . Ask teacher for help . Ask teacher if i don't understand the topic . Participate more in class . Pay attention more . Stop day-dreaming nd stop emo-ing . Focus more on studies , nd happiness ! Hehe . Uhm , what else eh ? Ohyea , exercise more ! Hehe . Occupy time with good stuffs . Teehee ! So , yeah . Thats for next year yea ? I will change okay , i will . Just observe la okay ? (: Kay . This year ehh . Before school starts . I want to recap my Maths . I want to read more books . I want to train my discipline . Sleep early , wake up early . Whoots ! Kay , done la . Whoots ! Now , i'm craving for many stuffs . Hehe ! I want more chocs pleasseeeee ! I want lollipop ! I want marshmello ! I want sweeeeeeeeeeets ! I want ice-cream ! I want cookies ! Cakes nd brownies ! I want more soft toys ! I want nicenice dress ! I want more CottonOn&Forever21 tops nd bottoms ! I want more shoessssss , especially converse , all star nd vans ! I want a cap ! I want a RING ! I want contact lense :D ! I want a new phone please ! I want Youthplan ! I want personal camera nd laptop ! I want to go shoppppppppping ! I want to buy Dickies bag for next year . Make sure its blue ♥ . Hehe ! I want to buy my school stationaries a.s.a.p . I want to buy school shoes nd everything , a.s.a.p . I want to buy manymany thiiiiiiiiings ! Argh ! Walao , so many sia i want ! HAHA , dream on kay Amalina . SAVE money behyb :D Kay lahr . Gonna save my money . Next year , save for shopping , nd for UniversalStudios with beby♥ , or with anyone ah :D . Nd get my own birthday present . Nd treating people fooooood . Nd buy people bday presents . Teehee (: Wow . What a long post i have today . Isit ? haha , i dnt care la . As long as my lesson is learnt (; Whoots ! Okay , i'm done with all those crapyshytz i wrote up there . haha ! Make sure i'm gonna me it happen . Watch every single move of mine , people (: Okay , byebye ! Takecare please . ♥	Yours truly, Nur Amalina Bte Abdul Razak♥; Muhd Azli Bin Rahim♥ FourteenTen♥ Turning seventeen♥ You're the one i need, you're the one i want, you're the one i love. 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