Vulnerable. That's what i am. Someone who breaks down over every little thing, someone who gets affected over small things. Someone who gets moody over small matters. And no, i don't wanna be that girl anymore. I gotta stop this shit, i gotta stop being sooo easily broken.

Im gonna stop, and this time, it's for real. No, i aint gonna be that girl who gets affected over small matter, not anymore. I'm gonna slowly build up walls, and slowly strengthen my heart.

All these while, i was my own pillar of strength. I do have my bestfriends, and family. But they dont know exactly what i'm going thru. So, all these while, it has always been myself. I am my own pillar of strength. I give myself strength when i lost all my hope, when i lost my own trust, when i lost faith in myself, when i stopped believing in myself. I had no one. I lost that someone whom i called, 'my everything', or 'my world'. It has to stop. I lost him once, and i lost myself too. I am never gonna let that happen, not anymore.

I dont wanna care about who i lost now, i am only gonna care about who's staying with me, and i am only gonna care about myself. I'm sorry i'm selfish, but i think it's time for me to seek my own happiness. I think it's time for me to love myself better, better than anyone else. And love myself more, more than anyone else. That's all that matter now.

I dont wanna care so much about people who dont even give two shits about me. Because i dont wanna get hurt anymore, i dont wanna get broken, i dont wanna lose myself once again. I've had enough, and it's time for me to get back up. This time round, stronger and wiser. Bismillah.. :)