Sigh. Today is the last day of February and it's not a good end for me. :( Firstly, i fell sick. I guess it was passed on by Azli. I wom't complain about him passing it on to me because it was never his fault. Actually my fault for sharing drinks with him hahaha. And kissing him. Mehh. Secondly, i had super throbbing headache. I swear i feel like dying man, just like how dear felt yesterday and few days ago. :( it's really really bad that even after sleeping for half an hour in the school lib, the headache doesnt go away but damn, it gets worser. :'( i felt so weak i couldn't even hide it. How stupid. Sigh :( And them thirdly, my ez-link card doesn't work. Goddamit how the f am i gonna travel for next 8 weeks? I will only be getting my new ezlink next 8 weeks. And no, i wom't even make a new one for now. It'll be wasted. Urgh i'm so mad at myself. What did i even do to my card till it damaged? Urgh.

Dear, i'm really sorry for scolding you just now. You should know me very well that i'll be moody when i'm sick, and especially when i already warned you, "i think im gonna have my period soon." You should know veryveryvery well, my temper gets worser and my mood changes faster than it usually does. You yourself know me  very well dear, i'll get mad or sad or cry at every little things that happens. I will get super annoyed. Please dont do this to me anymore. When you were sick, full of complaints, and getting really bad moodswings, i really stayed patient because i know that's gonna happen whenever you fall sick. I know that very well and thats why i stayed patient and never scold you for that. I really hope in future, you'll understand, and at least try to comfort me. Because just now, all i needed was your comfort. But i ended up taking a short nap to really cool myself down. So disappointed but it's okay, hope it wont happen anymore. I'm sorry dear, i love you.

Shall solat and then sleep. Super bad headache i swear... :'(

Seeing you smile, makes me happy.

Seeing you laugh, makes me happier.

All i ever want to see, is that sweet smile on your face. ♥

I get worried each time he update me his temperature. His fever is getting worser. His body gets warmer. It really worries me. I feel so weak seeing him weak. :( Sometimes i just wish i could transfer his pain to my body. So he won't carry much burden, having to suffer the pain. Dear, my heart breaks into pieces, seeing your pale face, and pale lips. My heart gets weaker when  seeing your face like you're gonna faint any time soon. I just hope you'll get enough rest before work starts next week. Please don't skip meals, eat at least something. Please don't forget to take your medication and go to sleep. Rest well dear♥ Really hope you'll recover real soon. Stay strong. I'll always be here sayang. I love you so much. ♥ *hugs*

And thank you for the your special recipe toast, and the treat for Coffee Bean. You're the best♥

Sometimes, you feel like giving up on each other.

Must there's always that one thing, that makes you wanna hold on.

The love, that is still standing strong.

Today's the start of my man's UT3. I wish the best for him, and i really hope he'll be able to do well for all his papers. My prayers are with you dear. May Allah give you the strength to think better, to make the wise decisions in writing your answers, and so you could think well. Amin ya rabbal alamin. ♥

Sayang, things may be rough for us, these few days. I can see that you get lazier to entertain my bullshits. I can see that you're almost giving up on us. Let me tell you one thing sayang. To be honest, there are times where i really feel like giving up on us. I almost gave up on you because the things you do are just ridiculous. You don't really think about how i feel, after you did all those things to me. It hurts, but i've been sucking it up. Because why? Because i love you too much. I love this relationship too much, i don't wanna lose you. Never. I just want you by my side, i just want you to keep showering me with your love. Your love is what i need, and what completes me. Thank you dear, for loving me with all your heart. ♥ There's always a time where we feel like giving up on each other. But then again, there's always one thing that makes you wanna stay, and just hold on. It's the love, that is still standing strong. I'm really sorry dear, for making you almost giving up on me. One thing i'd really wish for. For you to not give up on me, no matter how hard the situation is. We've been together for like, 2 years 4 months 1 week & 3 days. How could we throw all the memories we had, so easily? I don't think we can. I know we can stay strong. I know we'll last. Dear, please handle me at my worst. If you're able to do so, and then you really, really deserve me at my best. I know you do. I love you so much dear ♥

Dear Boyfriend,

We've been thru hardships, but i hope all of it was worth it. We've been fine for the past few days and i hope we'll continue this way. We've planned so many things to be done together, and all that i'm praying for, is for all of it to happen soon. Especially the one that we're working on. Dear, don't forget to pray for ourselves, and also for our relationship. I really want this relationship to last because this is the only relationship that i'm serious in, and the only relationship that i need. You're the only man i need, (besides my dad and Allah SWT). And you're the most important man in my life, (besides dad and Allah SWT). Please don't ever give up on me, or on us. Because we've been thru a lot, and we've come so far. Why should we put in a waste? 5-6 years is gonna be a long journey for us. We've covered two years, (soon to be 3). And i'm sure the time will pass really fast. I really hope you'll continue being patient, and being strong. I've been a pain in the ass most of the time but you do know my other side. I'm a weak girl, you know me better than others. I really treasure this relationship, and the moments we spent together. The fact that i can't go a day without talking/meeting you, and ended up missing you even after meeting you during the day. Thats how clingy i am. I know. :( i'm sorry dear, for being too clingy. But honestly which would you choose? A clingy gf who cares a lot abt you, or a gf who really can't be bothered abt you and really dont mind not meeting you for days? You choose. Dear, i love you. As much as i love this rs. I love how we're doing right now. We're doing fine, we're doing great. Thank you for everything, you've been making an effort to make me happy, to make me smile. Especially when im down. Thank you sayang. Thank you for treating me food, even when you're kinda broke. Thank you for spending so much on me. I'll pay you back someday. InsyaAllah i will dear. Thank you for always making sure that i wont go a day without eating a proper meal. Thank you for making sure that i eat, and by that, you'd rather sacrifice your money for me, and just let me eat even if it means you wont have a meal cos not enough money. I really appreciate all these little things you're doing for me. It just shows how much you really love me. Continue doing all these little things, because afterall, all these little things are what made me love you a little more each day. Thank you sayang. You're the best. ❤️ Hoping for a better day tomorrow and other days. Assalamualaikum 😘