FourteenTen♥

I didnt said it was your fault ♥ I.L.Y; Dumb-ass I only said i was going to blame you for it.
Tuesday, November 29, 2011 / 11:26 AM Upside down. You can take everything i have, you can break everything i am. Everything is messed up. My life is upside down. Nothing seemed to be right, everything is wrong to me. Feeling so useless right now. I just don't know what to do, to make myself feel better. ;'/ Thousands thoughts running through my mind. Parents problems not settled yet, and then comes another problem. Problem after another, what's this supposed to be? I didn't expect this to happen. I thought i wouldn't create trouble after this, especially with boyfriend. I was wrong. And here comes another problem, and its all my fault. Again. ;'/ Why am i hurting him when he did nothing? Why do i have to do this? What's with me? My ego have grown this big. This is bullshit, why am i being like this? This is not me, not its not. Feeling like another girl, in myself. No. I know myself better than anyone else, i know im definitely not being myself these few days. Why is that so? God, it sucks to be a girl. ;'/ I guess this is the worst week for this month. This sucks, i swear. True what Hannah said, i got carried away by my ego. My ego have never been this big, what happened to me? Just because i'm a girl, doesn't mean i can do whatever i like. Doesn't mean i'm on my period, i can vent all my anger to him. I should've controlled my temper. Why Amalina why?! ;'/ I know it hurts him alot. I swear i didn't meant to do that. Those who knows me well, knows if im mad, i don't mean what i said. I didn't know he took those words seriously. Misunderstanding, mistreated, misplaced. Urgh. ;'( No matter what happens, i'm not gonna give up. I ain't gonna leave. Because it's too late, i fell for him.. And i love him.. I don't wanna break my promises. I don't wanna make decisions when i'm mad, and regret later. I don't wanna do anything stupid. I'm sure we can make it through. This is a part and parcel of relationships. Im sure we can do this together. We can go through the ups and downs, through thick and thin. I trust him. I know we can do it. I believe in us. We just have to talk things out together. Thats all. And yes, i love him no matter what happens. No matter how mad am i, i'm not gonna do anything stupid. No regrets, just love. Thats all, off now. Monday, November 28, 2011 / 10:24 PM Shit happens. Cause i'd rather pretend, i'll still be there at the end. I'm still not asleep yet. On the bed right now, having my laptop on me. I can't sleep, due to difficulties in sleeping. All caused by thoughts that are running through my mind. ;/ Can't get them off my mind, sigh. I swear i don't know who to let it all out to. Just like i said, it's hard to have someone who can just be there for me, and make me feel better when i'm down. No one understands me, sigh. ;/ I don't know what to do right now. I'm pissed off, until i vent it on boyfriend. But seriously, where was he when i needed him the most? Waiting for his text like a retard -.- Waste time waiting when i know he won't even text. Stupid me, for having high hopes and expectations. Which leads to disappointment. My hopes were crushed. This is bullshit. Urgh! :'( If only i worked today, all these wouldn't have happened. Maybe i won't be as mad as i were just now. Maybe i wont even think about it. Maybe i wont even get mad for not receiving any text from boyfriend. Because why? BECAUSE I GOT USED TO IT. I got used to not receiving his texts and waiting like a retard. ;/ Hurts like fuck lol. Who cares bitch, who cares? No one cares about you Amalina, get to the point! Pfft. Urgh, whatever. -.- Ah, i seriously have to go to bed. I dont wanna keep thinking about this and keep crying over stupid stuffs. I'm off now, goodnight. Sunday, November 27, 2011 / 8:50 PM Go on and try to tear me down, i will be rising from the ground♥ I know you're somewhere out there, somewhere far away. The girl who never fail to put on a smile, is also the girl who cried the most. She may seemed to be smiling all day long, looking all happy and cheerful without people noticing that she's actually hurting and crying on the inside. Keeping all her feelings to herself, holding back her tears. Trying her best not to let people know how she really feels at that moment. Trying to hold back everything. Trying to keep her smile on. Trying to cover up her feelings. But ended up... Bursting into tears. Tears rolling down her cheeks, crying silently without people knowing. Wiping her tears, trying to stay strong and hold back those remaining tears. Trying her best to put up that sweet smile back on her face.. Ended up crying, crying so badly... The girl who makes mistakes, who always feel useless. The girl who is never right, everything she did seemed to be wrong. When things go wrong, it has always been her fault. She is always the cause of everything, and it's all her fault. Whatever she do, have never been satisfying. The girl who fail at making people happy. The girl who is unimportant to everyone. The girl who is invinsible, no one even notice she exist. The girl who is pushed away by everyone. She deserved to be ignored by everyone, deserved to be forgotten. She deserved all this shits, for her shitty attitude. She's the worst anyone can ever have. Its hard to have someone who can love me for who i am, someone who can accept me just the way i am. Its hard to have someone who can handle me at my worst. Those who can't handle me at my worst, doesn't deserve me at my best. Its hard to have someone who can listen to me, and not critisize me or hate me. Its hard to have someone who can just comfort me, make me feel better when i'm down. Its hard to have someone who understands me. Its hard, nobody said its easy. I don't know who i can turn to, who to rely on. Whenever i try to let it all out, people, no matter who they are, they tend to judge me. They stop listening, and start judging. They stop being there for me, stop being my listening ear. And all i have is, myself and the moon. I can only talk to myself, and sing to myself in order to make me feel better. But that doesnt mean, my mood could just boost up after that. Sometimes, the more i sing or talk to myself, the more tears would be wasted. Well, thats me. Whenever i talk to the moon, i never fail to burst out crying. Although the moon have never judge me, or even reply to whatever i said to him.. It is always an emotional moment for me. Well i hope, someone somewhere out there, could here me and just answer me and talk to me too. That would be great. :') Today and yesterday, wasn't a good day for me. I hope tomorrow will be a better day. Storm don't last, so i hope i can get over everything and move on. Starting a new day, with a wide sweet smile. Hoping that, that smile would light up people's day. Please dont crush that hope, please dont disappoint me. :') Goodnight. Saturday, November 26, 2011 / 10:18 AM A smile on your face, would light up people's day♥ "My mood now. :(" You guys will most probably ask, "What's with that sad face?" Okay, i'll tell you guys in a while. (; And so, today will be the last day for training. I mean, for work. Hehe! After training, we can already sign contract. And then, officially a staff there. YEAY! Hehe! :) And so, work was super exhausting. But i swear it was fun! Work wouldn't be fun without our awesome colleagues. Got to know our colleagues, and they were superbly awesome! And so, met Rian(Manager), Kak Wani(Manager), Abdullah, Arthur, Liz, Abbie, Jenny, Kak Aisyah, Kak Syahiyah. Weee! I swear they're awesome! Hehe! And so, first day of training was super tiring. Busy for three hours. From 6pm-9pm. HAHA! Awesome. Jenny was super kecohrable. Kak Wani was very cheerful and very cute. She's understanding and caring too! Hehe! Arthur is caring, protective, and cute. Abdullah was super irritating but cute at times, when he melatah ah. LOL. Abbie is so damn pretty, hehe! And, Kak Aisyah and Kak Syahiyah wasnt there on the first day. So, yeah. We had to do bussing. Prebus and bus. Fun but tiring. Its exactly like kendarat, but more tiring. Sigh. But its okay, gonna work hard! Hehe! (; Went home at 9pm on the first day. Abdullah and Arthur were kinda disappointed when they got to know that we had to go home early. Abdullah was like, "Alaaaaaaaa asal kau balik kul 9........" Haha, suka hati aku ah! Aingk. ;b And so, went home and straight away lie down on my couch. Tirrrrrrred. Nyeh. Okay, next day. Yesterday.. My body was aching, blisters on both my feet, and my jeans wasnt fully dry and i was damn stress. Despite all i went through yesterday, i still wanted to visit Amirah in the hospital. Sweet right? I know. Hehe! And so, went to meet Hazira at 11.30am. Then off to Novena, shuttle bus and off to KKH. Visited Amirah, and chitchatted with her. Went down to buy her a StrawberryShortcake balloon, and then buy some food to eat. Went back to her bed, and gave her the balloon and ate our food. After that, boyfriend came it. Hehe i miss boyfriend. Woots! So then, her parents came at 2+. And so, went off back to Novena. Walked around Novena.. Then off to Bishan.. Lepaklepak, then change pants. After that, off to work. BOOMZ! Manager Maria was there, and everyone's mood was down. Arthur was the most unhappiest guy yesterday. He kept on spitting out vulgar. HAHA! "Buto ah fuck ah cb ah babi ah" Hahaha everything ah. He's weird, lol. His hatred towards Maria was like BOOMZ. HAHA! And then, Maria scolded Kak Wani and Abbie for no reason. She tengking at them. ;/ Kak Wani's mood went down down down. ;( Its was sad to see her sad and stress. Sigh.. ;/ And then, she went to everyone and she was like. "Pinjam tangan jap boleh?" And then she wrote on our hand, a sad face. This face, " :'( " And then she said, "My mood now." with a very sad face. I swear it was sad to see her like that. Sigh.. ;/ And thats the reason why i put that sad face pic, heh. And then, Abbie was feeling stressed up too. Sigh. One kena, all kena. Rabak, i swear. ;/ Haish! When is she gonna retire or something? Stress sia everybody here. Dammits. Sigh.. ;/ And then, we did our best. All of us reminded each other to smile, and to do things properly whenever Maria went out of the office. We warned each other whenever she's out. That part super kecoh, lol. And then, Arthur was creepy towards Hazira. HAHA! I think he likes Hazira.. EHEM. ^^ Hehe! Shhh, dont tell her i wrote this. HEHE! xD And so, Abdullah didnt disturb me yesterday. Instead, Shah disturbed me. Eff that guy, he's effing creepy and im scared of him. He looks like an effing pedo, LOL. Ah whatever ew haha! And so, yeah. Did my best, really. But work wasnt tiring yesterday. Not as tiring as day 1. Heh. But its okay, still fun. But not as fun as day 1 coz Jenny wasnt there. Sigh. ;/ But its okay. (; Teehee! And then, when Maria went off. Everyone was happy. REALLY! Especially Arthur. He was like, "DIA DAH BALIK DIA DAH BALIK YEAAAAAHH" And Kak Aisyah was like, "YEAAAAHH! DIAAA DAH BALIIIIIIIK!!!" Hahaha! Kecoh sia that part! Everyone were smiling, at last! Haha! Stress aku tengok satusatu muka tak happy, atlast dapat tengok muka happy dorang. HEHE! And then, went off at 9pm. Daddy fetched me. So, yeah. Homed, slept super early. Tired lah, and boyfriend didnt reply my msg -.- Told you i can fall asleep waiting for his text. LOL. Ok next. You know what i did whenever im nervous yesterday? I smelled my hand and smile. Because i smell like my boyfriend, hehe! I even said to myself, "Hehe i smell like boyfriend. Yeay!" Haha sot. And sometimes, i sing to calm myself. Hehe! (; And so, yeah. Woots! And so, today.. Meeting Hazira late i think. Not gonna visit Amirah i think. Cause i have to buy some stuffs, and meeting boyfriend later. Nyeh. I miss boyfriend lah, like seriously. Nyeh. Woots! Okay, work starts at 4pm today. Weee! Okay best. Staying until closing, after that going to Umi's house for sleepover. Going home on Monday. WEEE! Okay best. woots. Okay, till then. Byebye! Thursday, November 24, 2011 / 9:00 AM Sup sup oi♥ You're my special little lady, the one that makes me crazy♥ And so, gonna start working today. WEEE! Working with this girl, at Junction8's Pizzahut. Hehe! Pray for us okay? We're gonna work hard to earn money so that we can treat our friends, chey! We're just in need of money, to go shopping and other stuffs. Hmm. Its okay we can do it. (; Going ngaji at 10am later. And then, meeting Hazira at 3pm. Hehe, excited but nervous at the same time. Please tell me the work's gonna be easy. Amin! Hmm. Okay i don't know what to do right now. My stomach's giving me problems these few days. What's with my stomach?! In school, problem. At home also problem. Irritating or what! -.- Urgh. Its okay i've eaten my panadol. Hopefully it'll get better before work. Teehee! (; And oh yeah, i miss boyfriend. ;( Meet up soon baby! I LOVE YOU! Hehe♥ Alright im off now, byebye♥ Monday, November 21, 2011 / 1:39 PM Two is better than one♥ Cause when i close my eyes and drift away, i think of you and everything's okay. Maybe it's true that i cant live without you, and maybe two is better than one. Hihi, i'm back! Sorry i didn't update blog for i-dont-know-how-many days. HAHA! Went for Dance Camp on 17th-19th November. Dance camp was awesome, really. And i thought it would be boring. But ended up, it turned out great! (; And now, i miss Dance Camp. ;( And so, first day.. Met Syahirah and Shahirah at BnS. Off to school. Put our bags in our bunk, which is in classroom 5/1 for MalayDancers. And off to the hall. Split up according to our groups, and i met new friends. Shu Yu, Nisha, Hai Ying, Mei Jing, Ying Jing, Alia, Kak Syafeeqah and myself. We're in group 9, hehe. (; And so, we had icebreakers. Played some games, and even after we played 4 games, i still can't pronounce ShuYu's name. HAHA! xP And then, went back to our dance groups. Had team bonding with them. Played some games too. We had so much fun laughing. HAHA! And then, we had our debrief. And back to bunk. After that, went to the canteen for lunch. Ate Nasi Lemak, hehe. Then, went to the hall for CCA Dance Training. So tiring, i swear. Did contemp and learned Joget Johor Sports Club. Hehehe! And then, went to ISH for Starnight Preparation. Did HipHop, danced to the song "Teenage Dream". Quite difficult but fun. HEHE! And then, went to the canteen for Dinner. Had Chicken Rice for dinner. Yumz! Hehe! (; And then, went back to bunk and off to hall for TreasureHunt briefing. After that, went for Treasure Hunt. Hehehehe, fun! Ran here and there alot. Sweat alot. HAHA! I love Shuyu lah seriously, hehe! ;b And then, game ended at 9pm. My group came in third. Yeay us! (; After that, went back to bunk to take our shower materials, lol. I mean, our toiletries and clothes for the night. And then, back to the canteen for supper. And then, Malay dancers were the second group to shower. And so, we quickly went for shower, and back to bunk. Took our sleeping bags, and off to hall to sleep. Chosed a spot, and prepare to sleep. I had story-telling session with Fatin. Hehe, Sholihiin must be jealous. ;b She was so cute! She rolled around in her sleeping bag. HAHA! And then, i played with her iphone. I played TempleRun during lunch, and then i tweeted using her phone before going to sleep. HEHE! And then, back to my place. Chitchatted with Syahirah, and on the phoned with boyfriend. Damn, i swear i missed him alot. First day and i missed him like eff. Nyeh. And then, hung up and continue chitchatting with Syahirah. We laughed alot, i swear. I was just too hyper that night. I wasnt sure why was i being so hyper, whereas i was very tired at that time. HAHA, imma weird girl. Even Hazirah and Shahirah were like, "Kau asal? Gila eh?" HAHAHA! And then, i was so damn tired and off to sleep. Second day, woke up at 5.15. Went to 5/1 and off for shower. Back to bunk and rested for awhile. Had our breakfast at 7am. Sat with our StarnightGroups. Ate Meegoreng, and it tastes !@#$%^&*. Mum's cooking's nicer. Nyeh. And then, went to our bunk and off for Chingay while the rest went for Salsa workshop. And then, had our break. And off to CCA Dance Training in the Activity Hall. Learned Joget Kereta Lembu. HAHA, CarCow, CowCar. LOL. And then, had our lunch. Ate rice with egg and vege and fishball i think. Then, off to bunk. And then, went to the DanceStudio for Make-up Workshop. I swear it was so damn boring. All of us didn't pay attention. We chitchatted insted of listening to the speak-er. HAHA. And then, had our Starnight Preparation. Group 9 went to the Activity hall. At 6.30pm, went to the canteen and had our dinner. Ate rice with chicken curry. Chewy chicken, hehe. And there's egg. We eat chicken and egg every single day! HAHA! Jelak bro. Nyeh. And then, went back to bunk, and off to hall for Starnight performance. And thats when the time of our life started. And so, we did cheers and had performances. And so, my group was the second last to perform. And yeah, it went well. Thankgod! Hehe! And yeah, we all partied in the hall. I swear we were like the loudest in school. HAHA! Kept on cheering like the school is ours. HAHA! Even the teachers joined in the party. I swear we had the time of our life. I love 181110! HEHE♥ And yes, it is also the third month of knowing my boyfriend. Hehe♥ i love him! hehehehe! Woots! And then, went back to the bunk and off to the canteen for supper and wash up. Malaydancers were the second last to wash up. And then, we quickly went to shower, and back to bunk. Took our sleepingbags and off to the hall. This time round, most of us were halfdead. And i wasnt as hyper as the night before. I was halfdead, on the phoned with boyfriend for awhile, and off to sleep. Tiring day for all of us, heh. And then, woke up at 5. Went to the bunk, took our clothes and toiletries. Went to shower, and back to bunk. Packed up and rest. Went to the canteen for breakfast. Had NasiLemak again. And then, went to the hall for Chingay. After chingay, went for DanceTraining in the dance studio. Played games for the whole 3hours. Fun! Hehe! And then, cikgu Haryani and cikgu Baya gave us some stuffs. Hehe! And then, had our lunch. Cikgu ordered food catering since we got 2000bucks for winning Gold W/Honours for SYF. And then, we takeaway some food since there's many left. Awesome lunch with our seniors, hehe! And then, back to bunk to pack up. Then, we went up to hall and had debrief and Prize Presentation. Homed by 4. Teehee! (; I swear DanceCamp was awesome. I love DanceCamp'11! Im looking forward to next year's dance camp. But i bet it'll be worst because we'll have intensed training for CCA Dance Training as there will be SYF for the following year. Scareh! But its okay, we're gonna rock on and make it better than this year! Or atleast, maintain! Teehee! (; I love all the dancers. I really do. Hehe! Ivy and... I forgot her name, oops! They love to disturb me huh! HEHE! And i love Shuyu and Yiyun. Hehe♥ And then, had our last Chingay training for this year, yesterday. Chingay was fun, i swear! Hehe♥ I love my life, i swear. HEHEHE! Alright, im looking forward to meet my boyfriend. I miss him. ;( Meet up soon okay love? I LOVE YOU♥ Alright, im off now. Toodles~ Monday, November 14, 2011 / 8:26 PM Perfectly imperfect♥ Walau raga kita terpisah jauh, namun hati kita selalu dekat. Bila kau rindu pejamkan matamu, dan rasakan a a a aku. Kekuatan cinta kita takkan pernah rapuh, terhapus ruang dan waktu. Percayakan kesetiaan ini, pada ketulusan a a ai aishiteru. Aishiteru, baby♥ HAPPY 1ST MONTH ANNIVERSARY, AZLINA♥ Hehehe! ;3 Aishiteru, i really do. May we last forever. Amin. (; Hey baby, thank you for everything. Thank you for always being there for me no matter what. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for handling me at my worst. Thank you for really being patient towards me. Thank you for giving me freedom, although most of the time you dont. Thank you for everything. You taught me so much, baby. You taught me to always accept whatever problems im going through, because ada hikmah disebalik apa yang berlaku. You taught me to be patient, you taught me to be more independent. You taught me that im not the only one who have problems. You taught me to appreciate whatever i have. You taught me to be grateful. You always remind me to remember that Allah is always there with me. You always remind me to never stop praying. You always remind me to not hate my family, because no matter what, they're my family and they're the ones who's gonna be there for me for the rest of my life. You always remind me not to do stupid stuffs just because im stress. You always scold me because you care, and because you want the best for me. Thank you for everything baby. I'm sorry for whatever i did to let you down. But i never meant to hurt you, i know its time that i learn to treat the people i love like i wanna be loved. This is a lesson learnt. I hate that i let you down, and i feel so bad about it. I guess karma comes back around, cause now i'm the one who's hurting. And i hate that i made you think, that the trust we had is broken. Don't tell me you can't forgive me. Cause nobody's perfect, no. And yes, insecurity is still here with me. ;/ Even though i don't show it, that feeling is still there. Jealousy is normal. But yeah, insecurity suck. The feeling of, afraid of losing you. Afraid that you might find another girl out there. Afraid that you might leave me. Afraid that you'll stop loving me. Insecure insecure insecure. ;'/ I can't imagine what would my life be without you. You came into my life, and i want you to stay forever. You made a difference in my life baby. You changed my life. Please dont leave, stay. Without you, my life would be incomplete. You really taught me many things in life. I appreciate everything you did for me. I really do. And i treasure our relationship. I really do. I don't want us to break apart. I want us to stay this way. I want us to be there for each other. I want us to go through ups and downs together, through thick and thin. I want us to stand by each other. I want us to understand each other, and be patient towards each other. Solve problems together, talk things out if we fight. I only have you, and i hope you're someone who i can rely on and depend on. I want you to know that you're the best i ever had. Thank you so much for loving me. I hope you'll continue loving me until the end of the world, and find no other girl except me. I love you so much. You're the hero and i'm your sidekick. You're the apple to my pie. You're the straw to my berry. You're the smoke to my high, and you're the one i wanna marry. We're the perfect two. Hehe! I love you so much, Muhd Azli Bin Rahim♥ May we last forever, hehe. Goodnight love♥ Thursday, November 10, 2011 / 5:46 PM Life would be incomplete without them♥ The world comes to life and everything's bright, from beginning to end, when you have a friend by your side.. That helps you to find the beauty of all when you open your heart and believe in, the gift of a friend.. Well, that song reminds me of all my friends. Every single one of them. Especially Fatimah and Sabrina. I swear i miss them. ;( Havent seen them for like, two weeks already. ;( I miss their voice, their faces, their laughter, their jokes, their ceramah, their advices, their smile, their everything. I just, miss them. ;( I want to go out with them during holidays, as soon as possible. I just want to sing for them, laugh with them, and see their smile. I want to spend time with them. I miss them so much. ;( You both have been great friends to me. Thank you for being there for me most of the time. Thank you for entertaining my craps and nonsense most of the time. Thank you for complimenting me until i kembang seribu. Thank you for making me feel needed, and feel important. Thank you for making me feel loved. Thank you for helping me with my studies and many stuffs. Thank you for listening to my problems all the time. Thank you for your advices. Thank you for accepting me for who i am, and loving me just the way i am. Thank you so much for everything. Thank you for being my friend. (; You both taught me so much. Lessons in life, and everything. You both never fail to remind me that i am never alone, because Allah is always there with me. Thank you so much, appreciate it big time! I love you both okay♥ I really hope we can watch movies together again. I want to take neoprint and eat YongTauFu with Sabrina. I want to watch movie with Fatimah. I want to play timezone with both of them. I just, want to meet them and sing for them. I miss them. ;( Meet up soon yeah? (; Sumpah aku rindu korang. Aku sayang korang! AdiosAmigosPergiBerambos♥ Wednesday, November 9, 2011 / 9:38 PM Aishiteru♥ But if you walk away, i know i'll fade. Cause there is nobody else. Hehe, fourteen is drawing near. It's almost a month, time flies so fast huh? HEHE♥ And so, yeah. No plans on the fourteen, because i have my damn chingay training. ;/ How sad. ;( I can't even spend time with love. Urgh, this just suck. Haish. ;( Nah its okay, we're dating on the sixteenth. HEHE♥ Woo! I hope he can make it. Weeee! (; And so, went out with Amirah today. Went to Clementi to collect her 2PM album. And went to walk around at ClementiMall. Hehe! Had our DessertDate♥ Had our ChewyJunior, YamiYog and Koi, hehehehe yumz♥ She spoonfed me her yamiyog, how sweet can she be?! HEHE♥ We had so much fun laughing and sharing stories. I just, love her. Someone who i can laugh with, who i can act all silly with, who i can be weird when im with her. I'm just, comfortable with her♥ Because i love her, chey! Am i sweet? HEHE♥ And yeah, i like it when she said, "Is it a date yet?" Haha, she's just so cute! I love her, hehe♥ And so, yeah. (; I love Muhd Azli Bin Rahim! HEHE♥ And so, i have a list of things to do with love. Shall i list them down here? Yeah i think i should, haha! (; Okay so, here it goes.. Go to the beach with him, hehe! Watch movies with him, movie marathon please? (; Look at the sky, look up to the moon and the stars with him♥ Take pictures with him, hehe! (; Go for an ice-cream date with him. Laugh with him, sing with him. Play video games with him, PS3! xP Cook with him! ;D Play truth or dare with him. ;b Play in the rain with him. Exchange accounts with him and prank people, HAHA! xD On the phone every night and fall asleep halfway while on the phone with him. Sing for each other when on the phone. Fall asleep in his arms♥ DoubleDate with Hannah♥ Lepak at each other's neighbourhood and have fun together. Jog with him someday, hehehehe xD Exchange shirt/bag. Wear couple tee together. (; Flood each other's inbox with cute texts. Have breakfast/lunch/dinner together. Spoonfeed each other, hehe! xD HUUUUUUUUUG♥ Okay i can't think of more. HAHA! I wish i could do them with him. Soon okay love? HEHE♥ Okay, i love you! FourteenTen is near, hehe♥ I love you so much♥ Tuesday, November 8, 2011 / 11:16 PM People change, memories don't. ♥ I can't live, if living is without you. Farah Frauder♥ Okay, i don't know her full name. But what i know is, her name has Frauder behind, because her daddy is Australian. HEHE! Luckilygirl, nyeh. This girl is so cute back then, and she's gorgeous now. I'm honoured cause she remembered me, after a year not meeting each other. And she name me, Armadillo. How dare! Haha! Because she likes armadillo, and its easier to remember me. HAHA, she's just so cute. (; HEHE♥ And so, went to Melville Park. Condo in Simei, hehe! (; Attended Memoirs of BoonTeckRoad, hehe! I didnt see any Samsudin family there yesterday. Only Atok Aziz Satar's family and the rest. Nyeh. And so, Farah was there too. HEHE! I came at 1pm, and then she came up to me and told her mum that its me, Armadillo. HAHA! She's just way too adorable. I wanna kidnap her! HEHE♥ And so, all i did there was eat. Eat. Eat. And eat. Fatgirl97, i know. HAHA! Chilled with my Paternal cousins. Awesome time we had. (; My cousins are all talented. Abang khairun, achik, abang nas, kak dawama and kak nabila can sing. Can i include myself too? CHEY! Okay i can't sing. I mean, i can sing but i don't have nice voice like them. Nyeh. I wonder who likes my voice eh, i think no one because i find my voice sumpah irritating. HAHA! xD Okaycan! Woots. Okay so, we had karaoke session.. Flashback session, lucky draw session, and of course, makan session! HEHE xD I ate a lot, like seriously. But my cousins ate more that i did. HAHA! They ate soup tulang, like a lot. 5 rounds already i think. Or more than that! HAHA! Power. But i know they always go for a jog every night. Maintain ah sapau. HAHA! ;b And so, yeah. We ate a lot. And yeah, we had fun laughing. I had fun running around, getting chased by Farah. HAHA! I had fun taking pictures using kak dawama's DSLR. HEHE! Well, how i wish i have my own DSLR. Sigh. ;/ Its okay, save money Amalina! HEHE♥ Woots. And so, yeah. Overall, i had so much fun yesterday. Although i.. Ignored boyfriend? Nyeh. Bluek! ;b Homed at 11+. And so, bathed and off to sleep. HEHE! ;b And so today, nothing much though. Went for Chingay, from 10.30 to 12pm. Lol, useless. I don't find it fun. So boring, hehh. And so, stayed at home until 4. 4pm, off to badminton court. Played badminton till 5.25. Went home and changed, went out at 5.35. Met Arifah at SilingSec bus stop, started jogging and off to waterfront. And then, jogged back to her house. HEHE! Had so much fun sharing stories. Its been a while since i talked to her you know. I miss her, ;( Nyeh. Its okay, our house is near. We can meet anytime we want. HEHE♥ Planning to go for movie marathon date, and maybe kinect. HEHE YEAY♥ Woots! The advantage of living in the same neighbourhood. HEHE♥ Woots! Okay so, homed by 6.30. Bathed and solat. Then off to ngaji. TEEHEE! (; Okay so, i'm tired. I'm bored. And i don't know what to do right now. Nyeh. I guess i shall just write my diary. TEEHEE♥ Okay goodnight♥ Saturday, November 5, 2011 / 12:31 PM I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile♥ Baby you light up my world like nobody else. Happy 22nd Month Of Friendship, AmiLina♥ I love you sweetiepie cute little princess♥ HEHE! ;3 Its almost two years of friendship, yeay us! I'm glad we survived, despite the ups and downs. I hope we'll stay the we are right now, even when we're in different classes. Although i kinda miss the old kiddy us, hehe! You know you're the best i ever had. You've been there for me since 050110 (; Through thick and thin. Thank you for everything baby. You did so much for me. Really. You helped me a lot. Even when at times, you dislike me or i dislike you. I know we still love each other. You know you love me, i know you care. HEHE! Thank you for all those memories we made. In these two years, we created so much memories that i definitely wont forget. Those times when we lepak near my block, or at Fushan. Those times when we had a big fight, where both of us cried a lot. Those times when we camwhored like nobody's business. Every minute there's always a picture of us in your/my phone. Singapore river, singapore flyer, Science Centre, Sports Carnival, everything that reminds us of last year. Those times were so memorable. This year too, we had so much memories. Block catching, Malacca Trip, ResortsWorld, town/bugis date, Stickys date and more. All those laughter, those inside jokes and everything. Those heart-to-heart talks, emotional moments. I love them. I love every moment spent with you. You're like the apple to my pie. OMG I sound like a lesbian, but who cares? You're my bestfriend and you know that. (; I'm sorry if i ever hurt your feelings. I'm sorry if i keep things to myself most of the time. I'm sorry if i disappoint you. I'm sorry if i made you sad most of the time. I'm sorry if i left you alone, feeling forever alone. I'm sorry if i ever ignore you. I'm sorry for whatever mistakes i did to you. I'm sorry for everything. Well, everybody makes mistake right? (; You, are a very wonderful girl. A beautiful girl. A very cute, awesome, cheerful, hyper, noisy, fun, strong, caring and loving girl. I love the fact that you're strong. Even after all that you've been through, you're still staying strong. Keep up your sweet smile, because it lights up everybody's world. You have a very sweet smile, that can make people smile too. You're sucha awesome girl, and fun to be with. Annoying at times, but cute. You're annoyinglycute♥ Always remember that Allah is always there for you. Never stop praying, because Allah can listen to every prayer you made. Like what you said, Allah test you because he knows that you're strong and you can handle it. Im sure He have something better for you. (; Stay happy, girl. I love you and you know that. The bestest best friend i ever had! (; Once again, happy 22nd monthsarry! I love you♥ / 11:57 AM The best i ever had♥ A mother's love towards her child is bigger than anything else in th world. Happy 47th Birthday to my beloved mummy♥ I love you mummy, no matter how much you nag at me, shouted at me, scolded me, and everything. You're the most beautiful lady i've ever known. You're the most strongest lady i've ever known. I'm sorry if i ever hurt your feelings. I bet i did it all the time. I'm sorry if i'm always rude towards you. I'm sorry if i wasnt there for you most of the time when you need me. I'm sorry i left you alone most of the time. I'm sorry i didn't help you at home. I'm sorry for everything mummy. ;'( I promise you i won't leave you. I promise i'll take care of you even after im married. I promise i'll be there for you all the time. I love you mummy. I'll be there for you no matter what happens. Daddy is stupid if he ever leaves you, i swear. You're such a great and wonderful woman. You're the best i ever had. You're such a lovely lady, mum. Despite all that you've been through, you're still staying strong. Never stop praying, mum. Because your prayes are the ones that usually Allah will grant. InsyaAllah, Amin. Stay strong okay mummy, i believe you're strong. Allah tests you because He knows that you're strong and you can handle it. I believe Allah have something better for you, thats why he test you. Ada hikmah disebalik apa yang terjadi, dan adik tahu mak redha atas semua yang terjadi. I just don't want to see you sad, and crying all day long. It hurts to see your tears rolling down your cheeks, mum. I swear it hurts. I just hate seeing you cry. All i want to see is, you and your wide smile. Your laughter. Your smile. Is all i want to see. I love seeing you happy, because it makes me happy too. I love seeing people happy, because seeing them happy makes me happy too. Mummy, you look beautiful with that smile on. Please don't wipe off your smile, and keep up that smile. Because your smile light up my world like nobody else. I love you so much, mummy♥ I wish nothing but the best for you. I hope nothing like this will ever happen again. May Allah bless you. Semoga panjang umur dan dimurahkan rezeki. Semoga semua doadoamu terkabul. Amin ya rabbal alamin. I love you mummy! ♥ Friday, November 4, 2011 / 8:43 PM Best i ever had♥ Baby you light up my world like nobody else♥ Whenever i miss you, i'll look up to the sky and look at the moon and the stars. It's a beautiful night, we're looking for something dumb to do. Hey baby, i think i wanna marry you. Hehe♥ Okay so, boyfriend asked me to update my blog for the second time. I'm actually lazy to update it again, but its okay. For the sake of boyfriend, hehe (; And so, here's another post for him. Hehe♥ Hi boyfriend, how are you? I hope you're doing great. CHEY! Okay.. Hi, i miss you. ;( Don't you miss me? ;( Although we met just now, i still miss you. ;( I wish you were here with me, so i can hug you tightly and sleep beside you right now. ;( CHEY. HEHE xD Eh but really, i miss you okay ;( Do you? I know you don't.. ;( Nyeh. This boyfriend of mine, is happy because his Os is ending soon. And then, he'll have 4months of break. And then, he'll be 18. After that, he can get his license. Okay lah, he loves to make me jealous. Hmmph! I know i'm still 14. ;( Turning 15 next year, and still have to wait for another 2 years until i leave school. And then, can have fun already. HAHA! Ohmy, 2 years seems forever. ;( I wanna be forever young, at the same time, i wanna fast forward to legal age. DAMN! ;( Nah its okay, patience is the key! CHEY. Now, studies first okay Amalina. HEHE! xP And so, boyfriend's leaving school real soon. He's gonna get into new school next year. I'm afraid he might have a new girl there. How? ;( Later once he meet a new girl, he'll ignore me, and leave me alone. ;( How? ;( If like that, lets get married now. HAHA xD But seriously. I'm sure there will be more pretty girls there, that might attract his attention. You know, guys....... Nyeh. ;/ Insecure insecure insecure! Nyeh. ;/ Okay, i'm into TaylorSwift's songs tonight. Like, seriously. Blame it on Amirah! HEHE xD She made me addicted to Taylor's songs. Damn! She's just so beautiful, and her voice is just so awesome! I swear i love her songs. And she's way better than Megan Nicole, MUAHAHA xD Okay, i love TaylorSwift♥ Hehehe ;3 Okay, i have no idea what to do right now. I miss boyfriend, really. ;( I need him. I want to hug him. ;( I want to fall asleep in his arms. I want him! ;( Daaaaaaamn. Meet up soon baby, i love you! HEHE♥ I L O V E Y O U M U H D A Z L I B I N R A H I M ♥ / 3:48 PM That's what makes you beautiful♥ Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing. It's okay not to be okay. Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.. But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising.. Just be true to who you are.. Hehe, hello people (; Okay lah, i'm bored. I didn't do anything productive today. Such a boring day. Dang! Nyeh. Met boyfriend just now, somehow makes me feel relieved. Rather than staying at home, looking at mum and dad.. Makes me feel worried, and somehow sad.. And when i see boyfriend, at least i can smile. And make me feel less stress. (; Teehee! Okay seriously, i don't know what to do now. I'm like, tumbling all day long. And admiring Zayn Malik's face, hehehe♥ Boyfriend will be jealous if he sees this. Well, he's gonna see this anyway. HEHE! Well, he's cute when he gets jealous. HAHA! You know, some stuffs i did, like, making him jealous with Zayn Malik, and sometimes making him cheer me up... Hahahaha, he's cute when he did that. HAHAHA, eh really. ;b Thats why i keep sulking, because i love it when he cheer me up. The way he cheer me up is cute and funny, that actually makes me smile and laugh in the inside. HAHA! (; I love the way he look at me, hehe that feeling ^^. Woo! Well, i just. Love him. Hehe! I can't wait for 16th, i guess? If i'm not tired, nyeh. If not, after 20th ah. Hehe! Ohyea, i'll be busy the next two weeks. The whole week manx. How tiring will it be! I have Chingay Training on 8th, 10th and 11th. Rehearsal on 13th and 20th. MalayDance performance on 12th and 15th. DanceCamp on 17th-19th. I'm dead. I bet i'll lose weight by the end of the month, because i'll be so stress and tired. Nyeh. Good thing actually, haha! (; So, i'm not sure if boyfriend's gonna meet me after all those trainings, performances and camp or not. I'll be so damn tired, and i'm sure he'll be tired too. I don't wanna trouble him anyway. Nyeh. Hmm, i'm thinking about the upcoming dates with Natasya, Amirah, Syahirah and boyfriend. And also, outings with 2/3, cousins and Aashfa-Ks. Damn, i swear i'm broke. ;( I need money! I want to work. ;( My parents allow me to work, yessah! But the thing is that, i don't know where to work. Sigh ;/ Must search for job a.s.a.p! Nyeh. I want to buy many things, like seriously! I need to go shopping! I want to buy Varsity Jacket, Vans shoes, Forever21 and Cotton On tops. I want to buy more bracelets and bangles. I want to grab FamousAmos, Ben&Jerry, YamiYog and all the snacks. Damn! That's alot. Money is all i need. ;( Anyone want to offer me job? Pretty please? ;3 Nyeh. Okay i'm done. I'm off to tumblr now, hehe ;3 ZaynMalik♥ Okay byebye. And to my boyfriend, i love you so much! ILOVEYOUMUHDAZLIBINRAHIM♥ Toodles~	Yours truly, Nur Amalina Bte Abdul Razak♥; Muhd Azli Bin Rahim♥ FourteenTen♥ Turning seventeen♥ You're the one i need, you're the one i want, you're the one i love. 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